WTF! rant

I hate this feeling. The same feeling I've felt pretty much my whole life. Although, I hate the feeling, I refuse to change/conform to the "norm". I am a nice, caring, respectful guy that wears his heart on his sleeve. It feels like a curse but in the end I'm hoping it is worth it. I put in 110% because my philosophy is either go all in or stay out of the game when it comes to love. I could be like the other guys around me that don't care, disrespect women, old people, etc, with their lack of morals and moving from one woman to the next with no regards for anything. I know one day I will find the woman that compliments my personality, and is everything I want instead of oh well, she's hot, or she's ok but she's _____. I thought I found three women that I felt were the ones (not at the same time)but turns out I messed up with the first because I was to conservative in making a move because I was scared. I thought I learned my mistake so the second one I was more honest and up front with and I'm pretty sure we are just friends even though she didn't say it yet. The third was going great, I felt such connection and then boom a 360, an old flame came back into her life and she wants to be friends. I'm getting slightly better at not messing it up on my end but it still sucks. So I'm back at another dead end road, at least at this moment in my life. Bad timing seems to follow me. I always seem to mess it up then when I finally get my act together; they are taken or not interested, or just want to be friends. Maybe I need to change a little bit. I need to change from the nice guy to the great guy. I read an article this week that said nice guys let people step all over them so that they can please everyone but a great guy knows what he wants, stands up for what he wants, and is still nice about it. I need to become that guy! I'm just tired of women using me, I guess I am to blame because I could say no but I'm sucker when it comes to doing something that makes a lady happy, even if sadly in the end I'm left empty handed and in the dust. I just wish that women knew what they wanted, and realized what they threw away. They say they want nice guy but then you are genuinely nice and they go for a bad guy. I get it that nice guys are predictable but nice guys can be fun, too and they are loyal. Bad guys are just that, they don't care and they will probably never care.